Faithfulness

Unlike many, i dun have a lot of dramatic ups and dramatic downs. Everything feels smooth with minimum turbulence. From Primary school, enter the last primary 3 class but graduate at the 1st Primary 6 class. At Secondary school did well enough to go to Poly and eventually to University. Even in University, not the 1st Class material but can maintain at a 3rd class also not too bad.

Looking back, it feels smooth enough and i thank God for letting me experience that way. Even though my academic was smooth enough, my spiritual wasn't as smooth. Got my many downs and my occasional ups. Sometimes running away from God, little times back to God. In seasons and occasional thoughts, i even thought about giving up this faith, but somehow, it remains a thought with no further action. So, sometimes, i do ask God, why do i feel so negative this way.

God never really given any answer but i believe He knows that i will find the answer. In fact, i start to believe that until now, God has been faithful to me despite my unfaithfulness to Him. Even though i have ran away from Him affecting my spiritual walk with Him, somehow, He always manage to make sure my academics are more than acceptable.

He is NOT a God that ties a string to a kite controlling the movement of His people and those He loves.
He is NOT a God that watch a person to die without any action.
He is NOT just a God that has a fix place whereby He can be found.

To me, God Himself is actively giving chances, merciful yet holy and holding true to whatever He said. He do as He pleases and gave the same freedom for people to follow Him or not. He allows man to make their mistakes and even record them down in His Word - the Bible, in hope that people of the current generation will not make the same mistakes. Morever, He always made known His promises so that everyone may be encouraged when the time is challenging. And, did i mention that He is so good, that He is but a prayer away?

Everytime, when i say the word from my very bottom of my heart, "Dear Heavenly Father,..." , i will always feel Him replying "Yes? my son,..."

So ya, i pray that someday somehow, God will touch you as well and you will know why God send His Son Jesus Christ to Earth. May you be overwhelmed by His faithfulness, today.